Home, home, home....

I'm finally home. For a whole month. With nothing to do.

I don't know what else I can say about that other than that it will hopefully give me time to just sit and think. I have a lot to think about. I have a lot that I can't help but think about. I was going to use this much needed time to relax and get healthy. To return to my normal "Renae state". I left for a while on a sad, lonely vacation. But I am back. I don't know what did it. I just returned. So now I have nothing to do but eat and think. Eating and thinking, thinking and eating. Sounds easy. I am afraid that I have a tough month ahead of me. That much thinking isn't good for anyone.

I once heard a quote that went something along these lines...

A guy and a girl can be friends but eventually they will fall for each other. It may be temporary, happen at the wrong time, too late, or last a life-time, but it is inevitable.

How is it possible that my situation fits this quote completely. I fell for a friend. It was temporary, at the wrong time. It happened too late and will last a life-time.

I am in a good mood. I haven't been for a while. Nothing seems to have sparked this but me just being tired of being sad and lonely. I refuse to have a boring break. I will have fun no matter what.

I am extremely excited to see my friends. More so for them than for some of my family members... Like certain smelly uncles that I try to avoid. I was just informed that I will unfortunately not be able to avoid this certain uncle this year... he is coming for a visit. :(

Ugh. I don't know what else to say.

"I still panic sometimes, forget to breathe. But I know that there is something beautiful in all of my imperfections."

Peace out! hehe